Sunday 28th May

Sadly things didn't go too well with the interview. I was extremely nervous for a start, but they didn't ask me about myself or why I applied which kind of threw me off and gave me a bad vibe. It's a charity but they didn't care why I applied or try to identify if I had passion for the charity or not? They asked 9 long, convoluted questions, none of which I was prepared for. Each question had like 2 or 3 underlying parts to it that you had to remember and think through and I just couldn't think straight. I think it's largely because I'm a little exhausted from the EMA, I've not been in a good head space as of late so I felt like my mind was blank, as well as the nerves. Either way, shortly after it ended, I felt that if they offered me the job, I would've refused because I got a bad vibe from the interviewers. They weren't personable or chatty at all. It wasn't a two way conversation, more of a grilling of myself and asking me questions I felt I wouldn't have known unless I was trained. I also got the impression that you have high case loads and are hounded every minute of the day with phone calls and I felt that I wouldn't have liked that, especially for the pay. So yeah, it wasn't a very good interview experience and it made me feel pretty awful for some time afterwards, but I'm feeling a bit better now.

For my EMA, I have completed the first essay, I think I got to about 1900 words (and I'm making sure to back them up with Google Drive. I can't imagine the thought of losing them suddenly!). It's essentially a draft because I plan on going back through it if I have the time. I wanted to get started with the second essay though first. I planned more for my second essay and I feel it's turned out stronger than the first one. But I'm trying not to let it bother me too much, I know that just submitting two assignments, even if I feel they aren't the best quality will be enough to pass. I worked out that the absolute minimum I can get to still get a pass 2 in the module is 43%, a score I've never had so I'm feeling confident that I can get this 1st which is my number one goal! I've reached approximately 1000/2000 words for the second assignments, so I'm sort of 3/4 of the way through them now. I can't wait to finish!

I'm going to do some cross stitching now to relax before bad and work tomorrow. I started watching Vampire Diaries for some reason, so now I go to bed and do cross stitching whilst watching that  I've also started watching the new season of Stranger Things  I have been wanting to continue playing my fave game (and start a new one after that) but I just feel either too tired or guilty when I do anything other than my assignments! Can't wait for that guilt to go with the end of this module! I look forward to getting platinum for that game and maybe doing a cross stitch related to it in future  <3

Sunday 15th May

Still working towards goal #1, I've been working on my two EMA assignments, plodding along hoping I can get them both done on time. This is a hard slog to get through, I kind of feel like I'll fall at the last hurdle but I'm hoping that won't happen. I'm aiming to get the first one done this week so then I have a couple of weeks to write the second one. I have about 890/2000 jumbled words (well one paragraph) down so far for the first assignment.

For goal #3, I've actually got an interview on Friday! I kind of can't believe it. I was looking at jobs, I saw one that seemed interesting but I was feeling anxious so put it off, but I ended up coming back to it and thought I'd just go for it. The job posting hasn't closed yet, I was expecting it to close at the end of the month so then I could do an interview and get started around June time. But they emailed me the following day asking what hours I was interested in and then I was invited for an interview the following day, like 2.5 weeks early! I'm feeling optimistic, I think I have good experience and relevant knowledge/skills for the job, in conjunction with my degree. 

I've also been looking at graduation ceremonies (goal #2) and one opens up for booking in July for a November date. However, I believe I asked before that there's more that become available when you graduate but I'm not sure. It would be good if I could go to one in my home city and within a few months of graduating but we'll have to see what happens with that. I should focus more on my final assignments first!

I'm still kind of managing to stick to goal #7 of doing my hobbies in between uni work. I've done a fair amount this weekend, I usually give myself like an hour or two to do something I like before going to bed. Hopefully I can crack on with more assignment work tomorrow after work.

Monday 2nd May

So goal #1 is looking more promising after my final project report came back today with a distinction! I am over the moon and so happy.  I honestly didn't expect to get that score for it so I'm in shock! I have been aiming for a Pass 2 for this module but if I do well in my EMA, there's a possibility they may bump me up to a distinction which is just incredible!

For goal #3, I made an appointment with the career's service and had a good chat with the career's advisor who reassured me and said he'd send me an e-mail with a bunch of useful links, so that made me feel a bit better. I might actually chat with my aunties when I next see them about graduate interviews and stuff.

I have been making sure I'm doing a good balance of hobbies, I even completed the story line of Ghost of Tsushima which was sad and incredible, I still have so much more to do though to get to Platinum! Then I can start Kena: Bridge of Spirits which I got for my birthday.  I've been stitching more regularly and have downloaded and purchased some apps related to cross stitching which I'm enjoying. I had a uni free weekend just now which I felt I really needed as I was feeling really low on Friday. :\

Goal #9, I've not been reading that much lately. It could be because the book I'm currently reading, although it's Japanese based which I love, the content isn't really my thing. I guess nothing is stopping me from starting a new book, but I should really focus on a bed time reading routine again. Maybe I will start this evening.